So it is true, everything is over. Everyone is gone. This is how life seems to be for me in these past many years, I cant even find the Empress...but I suppose its best that way the Empire needs her not one lowly exile. I never got to earn Esther's forgiveness for all I did to her before my death, nor say goodbye to Nightroad.

The worst loss that rivals even that of the Empress is the loss of Balthier...my dear friend, I find myself wondering why this city rejected everyone I cared for. Was this a price for my months in the deep sleep? I had and still have little choice in the matter, my source of life-water is likely gone as well even if not Nightroad is and I never met the Alchemist. So I will either starve or become a murderer...wonderful.

If life wished to do this to me...why did I even wake? I doubt Lady Sforza really needed me to save her...but now I have and I am awake...so what do I do? Maybe its time to take a stroll in the sunlight, I have not felt its warmth upon me since I left the empire....

-Gyula Kadar

Tonight was peaceful. Enjoying the snow after my visit with Lady Caterina. Alas I am so very tired despite how early it is so I can not join you for dinner tonight Milady. Yes..I think I shall sleep this strange feeling away...

[ooc; yes yes I stole a line from Nightmare before Christmas]

Mint az első havazik vízesés ebben átkozott város. ÉN gondol -ból az én -m haza , az én -m Istavan...

...I just noticed I was doing that, I apologize. Sometimes it slips my mind very few know the tongue of Hungeria.

It's started snowing, I know how dangerous it is and this will likely result in half of the AX beating down my front door but...I went out into the light today and watched it snow. Such beauty in something so simple. It brings me a nostalgic joy, I did not feel as lost or out of place while I was out today. It was a very nice feeling, but as with most I spent it alone.

that christian holiday is vastly approching, I find myself not liking this.

-Gyula Kádár

[ooc; The Hungarian in this post means 'As the first snow falls in this cursed city. I think of my home, my Istavan.' The translation came from here, and yes Caterina this means he went outside with a blanket around himself like Ion]

Tonight was not intended to turn out this way, I simply go out and buy more books to read in the long daylight hours that I am trapped indoors, but I never quiet made it to the store. As the two other times I have attempted to go in recent weeks. This time it was not Lady Caterina but ...August...Miss Seth.

This was the first time in my life I have seen the empress' face. It was a bit of a shock but at the same time very pleasant. We spoke for awhile before I walked her home only to find Lady Caterina in hysterics. Never a dull moment around Nightroad's women. After a small disagreement that terran woman tried to smack me

By the way; how did I miss a city block exploding? Can someone explain this to me? I understand I am mildly anti-social but this just makes me rethink my entire span of ideas.

Nightroad, contact me. I will tell no one if you do or dont, but I request you do. I have questions for you.

I have idly stood by long enough! I have decided that I wish to speak to the officials in charge of this city those whom run the police and any solders also doing these patrols I have seen you make all mention of. It is time something is finally done to assure that our second chances are not ruined. Even if that means destroying or bloodying my own chances again! Yes I know this is a little late, I had to consider this for awhile.

For those of you who do not know what right I have calling such attention to myself, I am the Marquis of Hungaria, my entire life I have ran the city of Istavan and it almost never really got as bad as this city gets! Someone has to step up and tell these peoples what they are doing wrong!

Also, to those who were blaming this Sephiroth man for all these issues not being handled. I do not see you out doing anything to stop it. So you can shut your mouths and learn to be respectful cattle. I am so close to just baring my fangs and ending the lot of you!

Balthier, if you could help me with this plight I would be thankful. You said one of them lived near me. I need his name again yes I know I had it I am just irritated and not thinking straight.



[ooc, yes I know this post is late, but I've been not feeling well again. I do apologize.]

...need I really point out the bad dreams. Yes I didn't put nightmares, this is because I know one of you pathetic lot would point out I sleep in the day.

But yes, there you go. I am uneasy as everyone else is. this place I swear.

Lady Caterina, I apologize for giving you such a scare.

...I'm getting hungry again.

1. Reply to this post with five questions you want to ask me. They can be serious or foolish, I don't care! Get personal if you want.
2. I'll reply to your questions on this journal or in a comment.
3. Do the same thing with your journal so I can ask you pointless questions.

I....have never felt so betrayed in all of ten years....It cant be true....

I have finally acquired myself somewhat of a livable residence, a nice house suitable for my needs for the time being I could not take another moment of being inside of that hideous apartment I had stumbled upon. but now It seems I will have no more issues with money and I shall live comfortably for the most part.

It seems now that I will need to hire servants and such but I wonder if I will truly be able to afford such a thing, alas I will worry later about that. AHH! I almost forgot! My dear friend Balthier, how about we have drinks again? I'm light of my new home It will be my treat. Sound good?

Esther Blanchett., I request your company tonight if you are not to busy. I have heard so little about you since I was revived, so how do you feel about this?

-Gyula

I have found lately that I miss only one thing terribly about my home, The paining of my late wife. At this point I would do anything to get it back, there is nothing I wouldn't give just to be able to see her face if only on the canvas. It may seem pathetic but in the years since her murder it has brought me much comfort simply to look up at her smiling face. I need to quit thinking about this.

Another thing I need to quit thinking about is Istvan from here I can do nothing to make sure the terrans there are alright and after what I did in these last few years I feel they must dance upon my grave. Yet I still worry if only because I know Maria loved those people with all her heart. Even in all the horrible things I did I still hold I had the best of intentions deep down...maybe the idea of using the Star of Sorrow against the world was a bad idea, you really cant win them all.

I wonder why I have been thinking these things so much lately, It could be the extreme lack of wine I need to find somewhere that has more, I have noticed I think more when I am am drinking less.

Another thing, Haruhi at your earliest please come to me so we can speak. You have the address so whenever you wake, I wont be sleeping today. Call it insomnia but I have to much on my mind to sleep, as I told you before when opening the door let as little light as possible in.

-Gyula

Maybe I should open the curtains, see if this world's sun would react to my Methuselah blood like my home's did.

Well, this is quiet a change from my normal. It appears I have landed myself a somewhat normal job, from imperial noble to cafe manager...this is all so strange to me but the young woman I met seems to believe I am the person for the job and I know I can put that place into shape, management skills I do have in abundance.

It appears that Haruhi wishes for me to be with her during some interviews that have been set up. I do hope she remembers that I can not go out in the day. That and my dinner must come first.

The Blue Moon Cafe, it has a nice ring. I hope that this works out, I have my fears.

I believe you owe me a visit. I am running very low on willing sources and need I tell you what I will resort to if my hunger gets much worse. I can understand your busy, it happens in any world to anyone if you can not do this then send Sword Dancer. He knows where I live, or even the person who made your equivalent to life water.


You have your warning, I will wait two days then I will do as any starved Methuselah would.

First off I would like to offer my gratitude and most humble thanks to Father Abel Nightroad for all the kindness you have shown me. If you have not notice I left some time ago from your care this was to assure your own safety as well as my own. as it stands I am now in a new place of residence and set up quiet nicely I do believe Maria would approve.

I remember you saying you would look into finding me life water, how is that coming along Father Nightroad? Please do not ask me many questions. I am not proud.

It would seem that I got lost on my path to the afterlife. I do hope that Maria waits a little longer for me, this must be a test from her god a test of my love. I will push on if it means that I will one day be able to rest in her arms once again.

This city is so lovely, everything we wanted Istvan to be. It makes me almost nostalgic wishing our dreams had come true. For now I shall explore this city and see what it holds for me.